I’ve been busy. Really busy. I’ve been distracted. My brain has been going in a million different directions. I have goals and dreams and plans and right now I’m constantly looking towards the future. BUT. In a few (maybe less) excruciatingly long weeks I am going to have a tiny, perfect, amazing new human in my life. I am going to have a niece. I am going to be an aunt for the very first time.
I will be so happy that she exists it will be easy to focus on the present. For her I am going to slow down. For her I am going to enjoy now.
I find myself admiring the person my sister is more and more each year. She has proven to be more brave than I have ever thought capable. She is strong and loyal. I’ve never seen her look more beautiful than she does right now and she doesn’t even know it. I am so happy to know her. I am so happy that we understand each other so much. I see her. I know exactly who she is and I know that she’s going to be an incredible mother. I know that as much as I know that Pat will be an amazing Dad. He is quiet and doesn’t express a whole lot but the excitement radiates from his face. They already love their dogs like children. They’ve got this.
Reid, I cannot wait to meet you. I can’t wait to jokingly call you “my baby” in person. I can’t wait to hold your little hand and stare at you for hours saying “holy shit”. I can’t wait to dress you and then show your parents how much cooler you are when you’re with me. I can’t wait to teach you what music you should like and what you should definitely avoid. I just can’t wait. Hurry the hell up.